To Hurt The One You Love

So i have not written in awhile, but this is definatly the time to do so.

Sometime very recently I hurt the one person in the world that means the most to me. My boyfriend. Which I hope i am still able to call him after what i did.

He needs his space and time to figure out how he is feeling and i am trying my hardest to respect that. Well at any rate i am now. It is ripping me apart not being able to see the face i saw everyday. To wake up next to. To laugh with. To share stupid jokes with. Its not there right now. I think with time we can work through it because we both love each other. and our love is strong. But until we both can there is nothing that can be done.

The night it happened i reverted to someone i had not been in a long time. I am not that person anymore. I have grown past that. And now i need to live with the mistake i made. Try And fix me and my relationship to the best of my abilities. I know he still cares about me for he has told me so. But getting over the hurt or working through it takes time.

I know he will probably read this so in this closing since i cant type anymore right now: Baby we will get through this.